Imagine this ..

An extended weekend to go christmas shopping in snowy New York .. It just reminds me so much of those Home Alone movies. I really wan't to see that New York. All the snow, christmas lights .. and generally just New York. I want!! ;O ..
For me, the weather either has to be sunny and warm, or snowy. Right now it's just .. blaah. It's not even snowing, it's just cold and wet. And windy.
Oh, and another place I would love to go right now is Hawaii .. It's like, the perfect relaxation holiday. Too bad when you're stuck in Denmark, huh?

Yesterday I did it - I applied for another "studieretning". I talked to my social studies teacher about it. He gave me some advice that really helped. And on the other hand - it's just school. I go there in the morning, and go home when it's finished. It's not like I live there, and have to be with my class all the time. I'm gonna miss my old class, but what I care about most right now is actually just finishing these next 2 1/2 years so I can move from Sønderborg.
But as my 2. priority, I chose the line I'm on now. If I can't get my first priority, I don't want to move at all.

Sometimes choices aren't that simple

I don't know why, but it feels like I have a million things to do right now .. Just hanging over my head, stressing me. In just 6 days I have to make a choice that could either make it easier for me these next 2 1/2 years, or just complicate them. I have to choose if I want to stay on my "studieretnings-linje", or if I want to change. Right now I have spanish, english and psycology as my main subjects .. I feel a bit like it's taking the easy way out, as none of those subjects are that relevant to me. If I change, I'm going to change to social studies, english and math. That means I'll have a hell of a lot of subjects on a-levels, but in some way it's more worth it. If I'm going to study law in the future, it would be very relevant. The big dilemma is just the fact that I would have to start in a new class. I've just settled into my class, and it's actually a really good one. In the other classes I don't know anybody that well, and knowing girls from this part of the country, they've probably formed "cliques".
I really don't know what to do, cause my parents and part of myself think I should change to the other line, while my friends from my class want me to stay.
These next 6 days are going to be hard.

Besides having met new friends this last half year, I do kind of miss some of the people I haven't seen in a while. Most of them live all over the country, have gone to efterskole, or have other things going on in their lives now. That's also fine, but sometimes you just miss the old times. I've also given up holding the contact with some people .. I guess they've just changed too much for my liking. But that's what happens. Friends come and go .. But I still have friends who I know are always going to be around.

It's not hard to feel that winter is on it's way .. It's 10 x harder to get up in the morning, and every inch of my body freezes on my way to school. Today I wore 3 sweaters and a coat + my uggs, and I still felt like I wouldn't make it without turning into a block of ice. It also annoys me that my clothes are so boring during winter. I just seems like your clothes have to be boring to be warm. And I freeze really easily, so I would almost die if I just wore jeans and a simple sweater or cardigan. I want summer back!! I look at photos from my summerholiday in France every day, wishing I could have my negro-colour and ekstremely lightblond haircolour back.
It's not that I don't like christmas, cause I love the whole snow-christmas lights-julestemning thing, I just don't like it for a long time - and I don't like the cold. Oh god, another dilemma.

In 20 minutes I'm going to watch Bones, and later watch Paris Hilton's My New BFF while I exercise .. And then it's time to have a nice loooong shower, and wash my hair with my new John Frieda Sheer Blonde shampoo, which my mother bought in England. I've tried it before, and I loooove it. It makes hair blonder, and soft and .. mmmm. And in just a few days my Dermalogica cleanser + toner and moisturizer will arrive. Yaay.

Katy

It's a hard-knock life ..

Last night I fell asleep around 3:00 .. So I was pretty damn tired this morning. I slept when I got home, but not for long. Since my mother is in England, I have to cook dinner. Yaaay. I hate it. I'm not high maintenance or anything, but I really, really REALLY hate having to be around food so much. I think I would go crazy if I worked in a restaurant or something.
I also have to wash my own clothes, which I've NEVER done before. It's not even that tricky, but I still had to be guided step by step on the phone. So now I've washed for the first time. Go Katy!!

I really don't want to go to school tomorrow .. I have to read the rest of my book by the 19th, and then present it and everything. But to be ready for that, I need to do some serious reading. Wouldn't it be nice to be excused from school to do homework? Oh yes.

One thing I've learned lately, is that you never know who your real friends are until you really need them. I mean .. some people are just so fake that it pisses me off. It's kind of like fashion I guess - One day you're in, the next you're out. I'm lucky to have some good friends who I know I can trust .. But all the others? Well, they're just stuck-up bitches.
I'm sorry, but generally people from the south are really arrogant and narrow-minded. The guys all think they're gods gift to women, and the girls think the world revolves around them and nobody else. It's really pretty sickening. And guess what? I have to live around these people for 2 1/2 years more .. Lucky me.

Time to exercise! I've found that it actually is a really good way to get your anger out .. So is blogging by the way :p

Buenas noches
Katy

What a day ..

It's actually been a pretty easy day at school. I was there from 8:00 till 11:30. And we just had to present what we've been working on all week in the groups.
I went home and slept for a while afterwards, and then I went on a very .. interesting run. First of all it was raining a bit, but I didn't mind. When I got out, it started raining harder .. and harder. Fine, I thought. I was anyway going to have a shower when I got home.
Not even halfway through the run, my stupid iPod decided to quit on me. Not listening to music makes the run at least 10 times harder. But i continued. When I was almost home (it was a pretty long run), one of my lungs suddenly started to hurt and it was hard to breathe. But it stopped shortly after I got home. Now here's the "fun" part .. Since I'm home alone and there was no one else to let me in, I hid my keys in the back garden so I wouldn't have to bring them. When I went to the gate to get into the garden, it wouldn't open. Great.
So I had to climb over this gate, trying not to think of what the neighbours were thinking. When I got over to the other side, I got my keys, and I found out that I couldn't get over the gate again. It was too tall, and there was nothing to stand on to get over it. By this time, my legs were green from that stuff that usually forms on top of wood. Now I had to climb over the door in the, luckily not so tall, wall, into our shared garden with the other neigbours. When I got to the end of the garden, the other door to get onto the street was locked, so I had to climb over that too. I was like .. Omfg, give me a break. Finally I got up to the house WITH my keys, all soaking wet and green, and let myself in. So now I've just had a long hot and well deserved shower.

I just don't get it .. It seems like ALL odds are against me lately. I am now officially a believer of Murphy's Law "Anything that can go wrong, will".
But hey, the thought of it finally being friday picks me up a little bit .. Oh, and the fact that they are releasing a new episode of Paris Hilton's My New BFF today!! (:. I'm planning on staying in bed, under my trusty duvet all weekend .. Or some of it at least. My sister and her boyfriend are coming tonight, so we're going to rent some movies I think. The absolute last thing I want to do this weekend is go to parties or in town. So I won't. Maybe I'm going to see an old friend of mine .. But that's all.

Katy

Stressed out

I feel so frustrated right now. Everything seems like it's as bad as it gets.
The whole day has been bad enough, and I barely made it through. And it's probably just a reaction to everything else, but when I was trying to do my stupid physics report, and I couldn't find the most important paper of all, it just became too much. Without the paper I can't finish my report .. Without the report I'm going to get terrible grades. It's been hard enough to get through 1.g so far .. So why do all odds suddenly have to be against me? First my phone, then my paper .. what next, myself?

I really need a holiday. Just to relax, get back on the right track and not have to think about school, grades and homework all the time. Most of all I just need to be with my boyfriend .. He was here the whole weekend, but it just went by way too fast. Still, I'm happy I get to see him as often as I do. He's my one and only happy-drug (:

Why does winter always have to go by so slowly? I like christmas I guess, but not as much as I have done. It was fun as a little child, because of the presents and all the food and candy. Now there are hardly any presents, and I 'just' get money from my parents .. And now I have to watch what I eat, so I don't become an obese overeater .. It's not fair. I want summeeeeer.

Oh well, only .. 6-7 months ... siiiigh.

Friends come and go, but Sex and the City lasts forever!

Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine,

Ever mine,

Ever ours.

I looooove Sex and the City. It's the best movie .. ever. I've watched it a million times, and it's still amazing every time.
I think I need to get a life .. I know pretty much every line of the movie.

Stress!

Tomorrow is monday, which means school. I feel terrible, cause I haven't done any homework. I have to read an entire book, write 2 reports and a hell of a lot of other stuff. I'm still annoyed and upset about my phone, even though I know there's nothing more I really can do. To tell the truth, all I've been thinking about all weekend is my boyfriend. I miss him so much, and I really just can't wait to see him next weekend ..

I think I need to just forget about the homework tonight and go to bed early if I can. A mixture of everything this weekend has put me off a lot of things .. parties first of all. And right now, food. Yesterday, all I ate was a bit of dinner, and today I've had soup. And that was by forcing it down. It's strange how I've just lost my appetite for no apparent reason. I probably just need to think other thoughts now .. Tomorrow a new week starts, and in just a few days I'm going to be with my most favorite person in the entire world (:

I have fallen in love with Katie .. No, not me .. But Katie from Horton Hears A Who. Such a funny movie by the way.
Katie is this fluffy little yellow animal with a really, really weird personality. The craziest little animal ever :p

Mobile phone = Lost

Yesterday I was at my friend's house, with our other friends .. It was a pretty fun evening, until we decided to go in town .. I don't know when I thought of it, but suddenly I didn't have my phone on me. I looked everywhere. I even went all the way back, looking around where I had walked. In a little dress .. In november. I didn't have time to think about the cold weather anyway. It was nowhere to be found. The strange thing is that when I called it last night, it rang through. But this morning it was switched off, which is strange. It couldn't have lost power, cause I charged it right before I went out. So somebody probably has it. I really wish I could just turn back time, and not bring it with me. It's the first time I've ever lost my phone, and it's an awful feeling.

Anyway, I've just watched a really sweet movie called Beverly Hills Chihuahua .. "50% warrior. 50% lover. 100% chihuahua" ;D I love chihuahuas! There was this really sweet song in the middle of it all, and I tracked down what it was called.

Megan McCauley - Porcelain Doll


Why do they leave me all by myself?
Why do they use me and bring me down?
Why do they hurt me?
Why do they leave me?
Why doesn't anybody stick around?

If I sit here, waiting to be wanted
Something good will pass me by
Many people look through the windows
But seldom do they ever look in my eyes

Why doesn't anyone stay here?
Why do they leave me?
Don't they realize I'm a porcelain doll?
Fragile, helpless, unwanted
Breakable

They can't tell that I am sweet
They can't tell I'm like a porcelain doll
Beautiful and demure
But they will lie to me

Why am I not numb to this?
Why can't I let it all outside my mind?
Don't let me sit here collecting dust
But please be careful, please be kind

Why doesn't anyone stay here?
Why do they leave me?
Don't they realize I'm a porcelain doll?
Lost, alone, unsure
Kind, demure, small
Fragile, helpless
Breakable ..
Breakable