Hold on ..

One of my favorite new songs right now;
Michael Bublé - Hold On

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones.
I guess that we were once, babe, we were once,
but luck will leave you cursed, it is a faithless friend,
and in the end, when life has got you down,
you've got someone here that you can wrap your arms around.

So hold on to me tight,
hold on to me tonight.
We are stronger here together,
than we could ever be alone.
So hold on to me,
don't you ever let me go.

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart,
but it's no ones fault, no it's not my fault.
Maybe all the plans we made might not work out,
but I have no doubt, even though it's hard to see.
I've got faith in us, and I believe in you and me.

So hold on to me tight.
Hold on, I promise it will be alright.
Cuz it's you and me together,
and baby all we've got is time.
So hold on to me,
hold on to me tonight ..

SatC 2 - great or just good?

As everyone around me knows, I absolutely can't WAIT for the Sex and the City sequel. But the problem is that there's been so much gossip about it this time around. When the last movie was being shot, I didn't read anything about it anywhere. I didn't see pictures or anything. Now, when I'm reading blogs like Perez Hilton etc. I can't avoid seeing pictures from almost every single scene, and possible spoilers. Of course I don't read them involuntarily, cause when it's there, you might as well read it. But because of all this, I don't think the second movie will be as surprising or interesting to watch as the first one. I mean, it doesn't matter so much to me. I can watch the series and the first movie a million times and still think they're great. But during the movie I'll be thinking "Oh yeah, I saw that one coming because of those rumours and pictures that were released months ago." I'm sure there will still be some twists and such, that nobody could know about, though. I just hope the media hasn't ruined it for all the other SatC fans, with all the spoilers.

Anyway, I am enjoying my autumn holiday very much. I haven't done anything special, just been with my boyfriend for a couple of days, and relaxed. That's the nice thing about holidays .. You don't have to do a thing. A lot of people think it's the perfect time to do lots of stuff and go lots of places .. But then when you get back to school, you'll be even more exhausted than before, won't you? That's my theory, and I'm sticking to it.

I can slowly begin to feel that winter and Christmas are on their way now. It's so cold outside, and I'm practically just waiting for the snow to begin to fall. They've also already started selling christmas cookies and other things for that time of year, in the stores now.
Well well, guess there's nothing else to do than bundle up and ride out the winter.

Buenos noches

"The universe may not always play fair, but at least it's got a hell of a sense of humor" Carrie

Frostbite!

Or that is at least what I think I must have. It's so freaking cold, and I can't feel my feet .. I get cold easily, and get purple/blue nails as soon as i freeze .. But today it's seriously cold. Last night when I went to bed, I had to sleep with a hot waterbottle AND 2 duvets, just to feel comfortable. I hate the cold!!!!

Tomorrow I don't even know if I have to go to school. All I know is that there are going to be some demonstrations against the new finance-law, which hasn't even been legislated yet. So some people are going to block the school or something. I don't really care what they are doing, I just want to know if I have to go to school, or if I can spend the day under my fabulously warm duvet. But I guess I'll have to go to school tomorrow morning and find out. And other than that, there's only 4 days of school left, and then autumn holiday. Woohooo. But if I know my teachers even the slightest, we'll have homework enough to last the entire time ..

Now it's time for a looooong hot shower .. Maybe, and just maybe, I'll stay in there forever. Or at least until it starts getting warm outside again. Imagine how nice and pruney I would become.

Buenas noches

You could buy me diamonds ..

.. You could buy me pearls
Take me on a cruise around the world
Baby, you know I'm worth it
She walks the mile, makes you smile
All the while being true
Don't take for granted
The passion that she has for you
You will lose if you choose
To refuse to put her first
She will and she can
Find a man who knows her worth
If you never play me
Promise not to bluff
I'll hold it down when shit gets rough
Cuz baby, I know you're worth it

I looove Alicia Keys, and especially this song. It's fabuloso! All of her songs are great, but my favorites are If I Ain't Got You and this one.
Anyway, today has been a looong one. And I've been to the dentist .. Ouch!. She gave me a local anaesthetic in my nerve at the left side of my mouth, and as a result, that half became COMPLETELY numb. I couldn't feel a thing. Half my tongue and half my bottom lip, and then the rest of that side of the mouth was totally paralyzed. I must have looked like a retard, and sounded like one too. It lasted 5 hours too .. I'm never going through that again.

This evening has been quiet .. I haven't really been doing anything. I got an sms from one of my friends who lives far away, saying how she had been eating mango chutney earlier, and thought of me, because at Oure we used to be the only ones who liked it, and ate SO much of it together. It might seem weird to others, but it's good old memories to us (: . It made me miss my friends that I don't get to see very much. After having lived together for a year, you do become close. They are without a doubt some of the most genuine friends I have. And that means a lot.

I have another looong day tomorrow too, so I guess it's time to catch up on my sleep..
Katy

Sometimes we need to stop ..

.. analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.

Tomorrow I am going to starve myself ..

Why? .. Because I have to. My crazy religion teacher has suggested that we all fast for the day, just like muslims. I might as well kill myself now. I can already feel the sugar-cravings ..

So, so far this week has been a very long one. And it's only wednesday. But long phonecalls with friends and Sex and the City have helped a lot .. I think the mixture of autumn/winter in the air, and being alone has made it hard for me to fall asleep at night, and get up in the morning. It probably just takes some getting used to .. And of course, the thought of school doesn't make things better. I need a holiday ..

Anyway, no more depressing thoughts! .. I need to go to bed soon, and get ready for my fast tomorrow. My strategy is to stock up on breakfast, and hope that will be enough for the rest of the day. But knowing me, I'll probably snooze until 07:27 (my alarmclock goes off every 9 minutes when I press snooze), quickly have a five-minute shower, get dressed and only manage to eat a piece of fruit or something for breakfast. And still manage to be late for school. My mornings don't really work out that well for me .. And then again, I suppose they do. After all, I manage to get myself out of bed and to school almost on time. Most of the time, that is.

But first, another episode of Sex y la Ciudad!

All aloneee ..

Coming home to an empty house is actually a pretty lonely feeling. I always thought I liked being alone .. But now I know that I don't like it for too long ..
I found out that my parents are actually first coming home sunday, so now I'm planning on going up to our summerhouse on friday. Just for the weekend. I could also stay here and go out partying with some friends, but .. I don't really know if I feel like it. We'll see.
This makes me think of one of my favorite episodes of Sex and the City, I Heart NY, where Carrie wakes up feeling cold because her window is open, and feels how the seasons are "clicking", and how it's becoming autumn. It makes her feel lonely, so she calls Mr. Big and asks if he ever feels lonely. He, as a man who never says the right things, just says no .. So she asks if she can come over. And then she sees that all his furniture is gone, and finds out he's moving to Napa. But the part I love most, is the ending. She comes into his empty apartment, and finds 2 things. A record they listened to a few days earlier "Moon River", with a note on it saying "If you ever get lonely" .. And in front, an envelope saying "If I ever get lonely", with a planeticket to Napa in it .. It's soooo sweet .. Sigh .. And I watch WAY too much Sex and the City .. But it just makes me so happy. So maybe I should have a "Happy hour" every evening, where I watch Sex and the City!

Tomorrow is just another day .. Wake up early, school .. So depressing. It kind of feels like a waste of life. Always the same thing.
When I got home this evening, I didn't really feel at home. It's hard to explain. Everything looked the same way I left it last friday, but still everything felt strange. I've lived here my whole life, but I don't feel any connection. And I know I won't be sad the day I move. Sure, I'll miss the house I've grown up in, and all my friends. But I'll be happy to move on.
I keep trying to find out why I feel the way I do .. And I think it's because this town is too small and quiet for me. I love cities like Copenhagen, where something's always happening .. And you can get around at any time. Shops are always open, and there are always people around. This town is like a 5th grade camp-trip .. Lights out at 10 o'clock. I guess that's the main reason. Sometimes I over-think about things like this. That's the reason I can never fall asleep in the evening. But I've figured that I better make the best of living here .. I can't go around all the time thinking "Oh god, I wish I could move away from here" .. Not that I do that, but .. still. And it's only just over 1 1/2 years till I move. So that's that.

This post has gotten really long all of a sudden, so I think it's time to wrap it up now ..
Nighty night