This is how you remind me

Isn't it funny how some songs remind you of specific times of your life? And specific occasions.
Like Wham - Last Christmas reminds me of all the skitrips we used to take as a family to Norway. Many, many years ago. I still remember driving to Hovden in the middle of the night, not being able to sleep because I was afraid of the windy mountain roads being to slippery, and it seemed like this song was always on the radio.
Another song, that I've first started to hear recently reminds me of my trip to England last week. Macy Gray - Don't Forget Me. I don't really know why, but it does. Just like Norah Jones - Back to Manhattan reminds me of Mallorca .. And Dido - Sand In My Shoes reminds me of all those times coming home from holidays, and not really being happy about being home again. KT Tunstall - Suddenly I See reminds me of my old roommate Claudia. It reminds me of her because she told me that when she heard this song, she always thought of me. I don't actually know why. C'est Si Bon by Eartha Kitt reminds me of .. wait for it .. France! .. No, but actually I heard it for the first time in the movie Something's Gotta Give .. One of my favorite movies btw. And everytime I'm in France, I think of this song. Cause I loooove France, and this song means "It's so good". And it is. In France, everything just feels .. good. Which brings me to something that makes me feel not-so-good. I was supposed to be going to France in the easter holiday, which I was looking SO forward to. But now it turns out we're not going anyway. Again. So .. That sucks.
Michael Bublé - Home reminds me of all the times I've been down in the dumps and just tired of everything, and just wanted to be somewhere else. And his other songs Come Fly With Me and Quando Quando Quando just make me happy.
Okay, so we've established that every song reminds me of something. I'd better stop before I remember too many things. But that's why it's fun to listen to old songs that you used to hear a lot once .. It suddenly reminds you of things you had forgotten about.

Did you take the time to realize?

I guess you can say I've got a lot on my mind lately. One thing builds upon the other, and it just stresses me out. It makes it so easy to feel like your entire world is coming down on you every time a small thing upsets you. I know it's cliché, but I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders sometimes. And I don't know where else to lash out than here. I hate talking to other people about these kind of things. I feel so stupid. And I feel it's a waste of time, because they wouldn't care anyway. And I don't even know what's bugging me. It's just .. there's always something. And it feels like no watter what I do, I can't win. But it would be nice if someone would just listen for a change. Make it easy on me. I'm so used to listening to everybody else.
Everyone who knows me, knows that I'm a very happy person. And I am. I'm good at putting the bad things at the back of my mind, and just carrying on. And that's what I do. It's only when I'm alone and have plenty of time to think that I .. well, think too much. But I guess everybody feels like that once in a while.
But when I do things that make me happy .. like shopping .. Oh, shopping. Everything just dissappears, and I'm in heaven. I actually just watched Confessions Of A Shopaholic, and recognized myself in what she said: "When I shop the world gets better, the world is better; and then it's not anymore and I have to do it again.".

So, already now writing all of this down, I feel like the world just got a whole lot lighter.
And I feel like watching Confessions Of A Shopaholic again now. It's such a great movie. But I'd better go to bed. I'm flying home to Denmark tomorrow, after having been in England for a week - shopping. It's been so nice to just relax and shop. No school, no nothing. But tomorrow it's back to reality. Harsh reality. I have to get up at 6. The taxi is coming at 7. I kind of wish I didn't have to go. But all good things come to an end.

Meet me halfway

It's a weird feeling .. That feeling when you see someone who has everything you've ever dreamed of. Like, the "perfect" life. And suddenly it feels like all the hard work you put into things just goes unnoticed and unappreciated. Almost like you're being taken for granted. And it sucks. Suckity-suck-sucks. But no big surprise there. I mean, nothing really surprises me these days anymore. A huge freakin' pink elephant could show up at my door, and I wouldn't be surprised. I just don't really care. No big woop.
But I mean, nobody really has a genuinely perfect life. And I don't expect that. Sometimes it's just easy to wish for it.

As Carrie from SatC said: "I admit it's tempting to wish for the perfect boss, the perfect parent or the perfect outfit. But maybe the best any of us can do is not quit, play the hand we've been dealt, and accessorize what we've got."

So that's what I'll do!
Now I'm going to have a shower and then watch Sex and the City .. Just what I need after a long day. Maybe I'll watch Svenska Hollywoodfruar too .. It's kind of like The Real Housewives of Orange County and that stuff, but with rich swedes. It's very entertaining actually :)

Silent city

It's like the snow has shut this city down. Busses aren't going, people don't want to walk around .. This is one of the depressing things about living in a city so small. There are not a lot of things to do in the first place, and when it begins to snow all you can do is just wait for it to be over. And then when you're sick, like I've been the last week, you're on the verge of going crazy. You can't really go out, you can't really do anything. Blah!

Right now I could use a big fat holiday. Get faaar far away from cold and snowy Denmark, and go somewhere warm and nice. My mind needs it, my body needs it and my skin needs it .. Seriously .. I'm very pale. I don't know why, and I don't remember if it's always been like this .. But I've been very, very pale for the last few years at least. Maybe it's the the lack of iron-thing, or something else. Dunno. But all I know is that I could really use some sun!!
I think a factor to why I'm pale and my immune system is so low, is because I feel stressed a lot of the time. I spend so much time worrying and thinking. I'm worried about not getting good enough grades, not doing good enough at school etc. It's my future, and it's important to me. It's like my ticket out of here. But I've decided to slow down a little. Not care so much about the small things, and stop worrying. And that goes for everything in life. Whatever will be, will be. Time to accept that! :)

Anyway, I am actually going on a kind of "holiday" next sunday .. My sister and I are going to visit my grandmother in England. I suppose it will be quite nice to get away and go shoppiiing .. Things are so much cheaper over there, and I always find a million things I like.

Still looking forward to the summerholiday though ..